Conflicted

It's been a while since I posted and I think right now is a good time to do so. Over this last

week, I have been sick (not good), and I have been conflicted with so many thoughts. Last night

I thought my brain was going to explode because of my thoughts. Hopefully, I can sort through this pile of junk and make some sense out of it.

I was at Fall Getaway last weekend, which got me thinking already of what to do for the summer. One thing that has been on my mind constantly over the past few days is what to do over this summer. While I want to be a councilor again for Northern Pines, I feel God has called me to do something else. I've prayed about doing a Summer Project through Campus Crusade for Christ (or Cru). I feel that God wants me to challenge my faith and to share it as well. Cru has allowed me to be more comfortable in my faith, which is the reason the conflicts are happening. I know ultimately, it's God calling me to do something, which I am getting better at, but I still have some things to learn.

That's the main thing that is tugging on my heart. I think that I definitely need to pray about it more, and also pray for me. I know I am making a tough decision, but I hope that what God tells me is right, is what most benefits my life. I hope that fall break will give me a chance to further sort out what's going on.

I'm sick right now and I am drinking a lot of orange juice. I hope this cold comes to pass because I don't want to deal with it. Peace everyone, until next time...